Alec Baldwin Contemplated Suicide After Fatal ‘Rust’ Shooting, Reveals Wife Hilaria Baldwin

March 5, 2025: Hilaria Baldwin has revealed the deep emotional struggles her husband, Alec Baldwin, has faced since the tragic on-set shooting incident in 2021 that claimed the life of cinematographer Halyna Hutchins. Alec Baldwin was involved in a devastating accident when a live round discharged from a prop gun in his hand, fatally injuring Hutchins during the filming of Rust.

In a recent episode of The Baldwins, Hilaria opened up about a particularly difficult exchange between her and Alec. She shared that Alec had contemplated taking his own life as he wrestled with overwhelming feelings of survivor’s guilt. “I found these text messages the other day between us,” Hilaria said, revealing the heartbreaking words from Alec: “He said he wanted to kill himself.”

Alec’s guilt and despair were rooted in the tragedy that unfolded when the gun, in his hands, accidentally discharged. Hilaria revealed how Alec would often wish that he could have swapped places with Halyna, saying, “He wishes it were him.” The traumatic event left Alec to not only deal with the loss but also the constant replaying of the accident in his mind, which had a devastating effect on both his mental and physical health.

Hilaria also disclosed that Alec’s health had been seriously affected, with heart problems that led to multiple hospitalizations. In addition, Alec was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), further complicating his recovery.

Despite his own suffering, Alec often expressed more concern about the toll the incident had on his family. He confided in Hilaria, “I always feel more in pain about you than me… I think what it’s done to you and how much it’s hurt you.” This was a reflection of the emotional and psychological burden the tragedy placed not only on him but on his loved ones as well.

In a legal context, Alec Baldwin faced involuntary manslaughter charges, which were ultimately dismissed in July 2024 after the discovery of withheld evidence. Following this, Alec filed a civil lawsuit for malicious prosecution and civil rights violations, seeking justice after the life-altering ordeal.

As Alec Baldwin continues to cope with the aftermath of this incident, Hilaria has been by his side, helping him navigate the difficult road to recovery. Despite the immense strain, Alec and Hilaria continue to support each other through the lasting emotional and physical effects of that fateful day.